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“In the pages of this book…”

“… you and I will meet one-on-one, my mind and yours, and you will enter a world of my making and dwell there, not as a character that I control, but as a person with a mind of your own. You will make of my story what you need it to be, if you can. I hope my tale is true enough and flexible enough that you can make it into a world worth living in.”

          - Orson Scott Card, Introduction to Speaker for the Dead, 3-29-1991

This is the reason I read scifi and fantasy. Card is my favorite. If you have not read Ender’s Game your life is not complete.    

“Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.”

If anyone can get away with such a statement it would be Albert Einstein. He was a pioneer in the field of science and his opinions hold a lot of weight, at least for me they do. Science paired with religion? Most could not find any two things more opposite and contradictory, but I wholeheartedly agree with Einstein.

My immediate thoughts go to the creation of the universe. Where did it come from? How did it come to be? When was it created? All extremely unanswerable questions in my mind. Science tends to lean towards Cosmology and Darwinism, religion towards creationism.

Religions of all types argue that the universe was formed by intelligent design, a conscious being created everything. Cosmologists argue for the Big Bang theory, believing that the universe is an extremely dense and hot state that constantly expands. When you look at both of these theories you can’t help but question them. If an intelligent being created the universe…what created the intelligent being? If the universe is made by an expanding mass of material…where did that material come from? What prompted the designer to create the universe and us in it? What initiated the expansion of this mass? If we were created then why have things evolved over time, does this mean the creator got something wrong? How could a cluster of subatomic particles expand and create something as complex as DNA? Neither theory has enough proof to prove the other wrong. Neither is statistically impossible.

“For a cell to appear randomly would require 100 ‘functional proteins to appear simultaneously in one place.’ The probability of this is astoundingly low — ten to negative 2,000. There are 2,000 enzymes necessary for random cell formation. The probability of random appearance is 10 to the negative 40,000th power.” – Jim Welch, Times News

Well, that’s not very probable. Humans have about 100 trillion cells making up their body…multiply that by all the humans currently alive and who have lived throughout history. Plus you need to add every animal and plant cell that has ever existed to the equation. I don’t have the ability to type or comprehend that number but obviously it is high and each one of those near infinite number of cells had a 10 to the negative 40,000th power chance of forming without any help. Possible? Yes. Probable? Certainly not.

Well, what’s your defense for creationism? Seven days to create the World? Then why do geologists record the Earth as being billions of years old? How come people never existed while dinosaurs roamed the Earth? I don’t have any facts to offer but I do have my personal theory that may be of interest.

The Bible states that God exists outside of time and space. We can not possibly grasp that concept; there is no proof for or against. It is a statement that can be believed solely on faith. I personally possess that faith. It also says in the Bible that God IS love. That for me is the reason why God created the Earth. From what we know of love it makes sense that a being that doesn’t just love but IS love would want something TO love and be loved in return. Solution? Create a something that can support something that can love you. The universe to support Earth, Earth to support plants and animals, which are to support humans. Humans are obviously unique in many ways but one major way in relation to love. God wanted us to love him. True love comes only from the willing; therefore he had to create a being intelligent enough to have free will in order to make this decision for themselves. If he forced us to love him we would not truly love him and would be no different than animals. Love is the reason behind creation.

Seven days? There is no where in the Bible that states that a day to God lasts for 24 hours. The only statement about God and time consists of “outside of it”. There is a reoccurring theme of God and time in the Bible and that is he takes a lot more of it then we expect. For example, Jesus said he was coming back SOON. I am sure the disciples thought, “hm, soon? I wonder if that will be next week or the week after? Surely by spring time.” Well, about 2,000 years later and he’s not here yet. So if “soon” is different then why wouldn’t a day be? What I believe matches more accurately up with science, I believe in plate tectonics, microevolution, and that the Earth, indeed is VERY old. I think that God created the universe exactly how he said he did but each “day” was in fact hundreds of thousands to billions of years in our time. This would explain why dinosaurs lived and died before humans, they were created the “day” before us. Another interesting thing, in the Bible is says, “God said, ‘let there be light…’ and there was” (Gen 1:14). So God started creation with sound… well, a new theory on the big bang is that its initiation was caused by sound. That’s something to think about eh?

The older I have gotten and the more I learn about science the more I believe in creationism. The story just matches up perfectly to me so much so that I began to feel that my college science course were like Sunday school for grown ups. I think so many religious people stop using their brains and shy away from facts and scientific laws but that is just ignorance. We have a mind for a reason and God did not create it to be wasted nor did he create everything that makes up science to be ignored and over looked. It is another amazing creation and should be studied, admired, and revered because in actuality everything made BY God is PART of God. That being the case you can’t pick and choose what parts of God you want to love and what parts you want to deny.

Scientist I encourage you to look deeper into religion with an open mind. Religious people I encourage you to research the world around you and stop being so paranoid that you will find something that contradicts your beliefs, where is the faith?  

“What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say…

…’This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more, every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!’ Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘Never have I heard anything more divine?’”

                                                                     - Friedrich Nietzsche

Wow. What a question. Would you rejoice at the opportunity to relive your life in its entirety? My immediate answer was absolutely not. I had flash backs of the torturous years of middle school…those awkward years of stringy limbs, high water jeans, and a hair cut that resembled a garden bush. Then high school…the group of “mean girls” that every school has… the day they attempted to get me to resign as V.I.C.A. vice president. Those years after high school where my mistakes piled up around me locking me into a prison of guilt and shame. The worst…the broken hearts…all the nights I’ve cried, screamed out to God to take the pain away.

Then I thought of myself now. Who I am. What I’ve accomplished and more importantly…what I will accomplish. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without all those trials and tribulations. I wouldn’t possess the wisdom that I am so dearly fond of. I wouldn’t be able to offer anything to anyone. My purpose in life is to bring hope and healing to mankind through the redemption of Jesus Christ. How could I posibly attempt to do that if I had not truly experienced that redemption?  

So my answer is ‘Never have I heard anything more divine’. Give me the opportunity to relive all the times that God dusted me off and put me back on the right path, turning my sorrow into joy, forgave me with no questions asked, and rescued me…I would take it…for without these things I would have no life worth living or reliving.

I am grateful that I do not have to make this choice however, I am glad that I have been reminded of these things and I think it wise for all to relive their lives in memory. Don’t make the same mistakes of the past, use that past to grow and become something greater. God created us all for greatness and he made our journey towards that greatness unique and special, it is certianly something worth remembering.

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” -Romans 8:28

“The never-ending task of self improvement”

It is hard for me to conceive the fact that some people do not care about self improvement. They are content with their status, their station in society, their make of character. Never striving for more, often never even desiring more. It makes me think of a horse with a carrot dangling in front of their nose. They don’t look for anything more than what is right in front of them, the easy tangible things.

I, for one, cannot bear becoming stagnant. I will not become complacent with my life, it being but a drop in the pool of eternity I don’t have time to waste any of it. I am hiking through life. Sometimes the climb is steep, gaining great measures to the top, others there is barely an incline. The path can be smooth and easy going one minute and the next I could be broken and bruised struggling to move a step. But that’s the thing…I always take that step. Always moving forward always getting closer to the top.

While improving the success in my life is easy, nothing that hard work and determination can’t do, improving my character is hardly so. It is a constant battle to perfect myself, a battle I know I’ll never win, but would be utterly dissatisfied if I didn’t keep fighting. My goal is completely unreachable, to be like Christ. Though I know I will never fulfill this I will not let the impossibilities of my task hinder my attempts. I suppose that is exactly what Emerson was talking about when he said self improvement is a never-ending task. For any who read this I hope that you are a climber, a striver, a fighter and not simply flying through life on autopilot, and if you are…it is never too late to take over the controls.

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children…to leave the world a better place…to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”

                                                                                 -Ralph Waldo Emerson